I’m so sad! After I made that post I parted with a few tears. Sometimes I hated being so horribly swamped and stretched during my last months of school and I would just bang my head on the desk and hold my breath. If porny fanart could be a job I would have loved to do it. I can’t imagine how many people I upset because I didn’t get back to their messages, among other things. Adulting on
Being an adult is really hard.
And I’m really really bad at it! I’m so sorry y’all, I’ve been away even longer than I ever have, and there’s no excuse except real life. I’ve finally graduated school, but it didn’t free me up for more time like I’d hoped. I’ve just been busier. With senior show, graduation, old and ailing parents, moving once and soon again, and then getting a job that actually uses my degree, I’ve been busier than ever. Fandom is at the back of my mind most days, and I’ve lost a lot of interest for fandom things that I’ve always loved. I won’t ever quit fandom I think, but I’m still trying to get settled into existing without the community and comfort of a school environment. I’m afraid I’ve amassed emails and messages that I simply have been unable to look at. If you see a new message from me that’s responding to something you sent ages ago, I’m so sorry! I’ve been ignoring my lovely internet friends, and still shamefully have commissions that are long past due. For this reason I don’t think I will do commissions at all anymore, or at least for a long, long while. I’ve never really had time for them, though I wanted with all my heart to do more and more.
I love you all, and I do wish I coudl do all the fandom things I plan out in my head. I see fanart everywhere, but I rarely get to draw it out.